Well i havent wrote on this in a month or so, so i figured id put something up. ive been under alot of stress lately. other than trying to get my health improved, im stressing over that i have no health insur anymore since they dropped me and my hubby and they didnt even tell us that it ended on sept 30 and i went for labs and my physical with my family doc in Oct. And i cant get the meds i need cuz i dont have any insurance. I hate being a burden to Mark, and i know hes worried about it and wonder where hes gonna get money to get the meds i need, like my Synthroid and Potassium. If i dont take my GERD med i feel like im having a heartattack and OTCs dont help at all for it. And of course i still have pain in my neck ( bulging and herniated discs) and shoulder from being rear-ended in 2011. they want me to sign up for disability that way i can have MA, but i have no idea how im going to collect SSI or whatever it is i havent worked since i was 20 ive been a stay at home wife/mother/homeschoolmom for the last 16 yrs total, well itll be 16yrs married on Nov 23, dont seem like its been that long and we have a 13 yr old daughter. so where would the money be????? i really cant lift anything cuz of my shoulder and neck, im tired all the time i cant think like i use to with all this thyroid cancer stuff, and still feel weak and dizzy. all they know is i have an ongoing medical condition, thats why they want me on disability to out me on MA but hubby wont be on it and he has cancer checkups still.
i thought i could stop stressing about stuff, i get into remission of my thyroid cancer to this. But i will still have to see endo doc for labs and checkups i see her in nov but not sure what to do i dont want to cause mark to stress how hes gonna pay my medical bills.
i just feel like ranting tonight. why is it when one storm seems to calm down but not end yet another storm comes when the other isnt gone yet like having 2 storms coming at you at once. ARGGGG!!!!!!!
i havent been able to sleep lately and im so tired, and tired of everything thats going on. my brain hasnt been the same either i have to write EVERYTHING down even where i need to stop when im out, like today Ash had piano lesson today and i had to go to several places and had to write them down cuz yesterday i couldnt remember all i had to do, like stopping at the endo doc to get samples of Synthroid for 4 months so i know atleast ill have my synthroid til we figure everything out.
I think i hurt my throat today i was wondering when i was going to seems like when i eat or drink i feel like im going to choke on it, all since my 2 thyroid surgeries and today i was at mcds getting some fries and they went down really hard and now my throat hurts like i cut it or something.. and seems like when i eat or drink i have to like put my chin down towards my neck or chest before i swallow, if i dont it feels like it doesnt want to go down. ok my rant it done hoping i can sleep tonight i know i need to trust in the Lord but its hard when it seems like everything is going wrong at the same time all the time im tired mentally,physically,and emotionally. i know its mainly thyroid issues and tired of the pain in the shoulder and C-spine........................
