I see i havent been posting in a month or more. Been stressing out from everything that has been happening. I have gone to the ER for anxiety attacks and had them at home too, but not so bad that i had to go to the ER only the ones that made my chest hurt bad.
I'm still without health insurance i have seen my endo dr but she didnt make me do my labs to see if they need to adjust my synthroid. but i think she wants to because of my chest pains i have been having and my heart races as well. I went to my new family dr about the disability forms he said to call SSA which is what i wanted to do from the start. But some people told me not to.Guess I'll go with my instincts next time. i called the corning one someone told me call there not the main place, and they were right are nice and helpful. i have a phone interview in jan. i hate stressing my hubby out with the medical bills and buying me meds now. I'm sure that my anxiety attacks are from worrying so much about this all, cuz thats when they started i havent had them since 2006 when my potassium was so low it made my arms and legs numb.
i even tried not taking my potassium like im suppose to and make them last and when i was in the ER for chest pains they checked my levels and they were low so i know i need those pills for the rest of my life as well as synthroid.
i still have memory loss cant remember anything much i have to write everything i have to get or do even driving i have to write down where i need to stop if i have more than one stop to make.
Saturday the 22nd will be a year ago i had my first thyroidectomy. My daughter asked me today, mom was last year when you had ur surgery more stressful for u or is it now when ur having all this insurance problems? I answered I was stressed both times but for sure this yr is more stressful. cant believe its almost Christmas last yr i was getting all my shopping done and tests done for surgery, i remember not sleeping the night before and Christmas day i was tired and sore but loved being with my daughter and my hubby. the best Christmas present i got last year was...... My husband cleaning the kitchen, washing all the dishes and putting them away, and started my Christmas dinner.
it doesnt feel like Christmas because theres no snow on the ground and its warmer than usual around where i live it was that way last year too. this year has gone by fast and i thought it was going so slow especially during the L.I.D.
Its hard to keep trusting God through all this. I know He is there but i feel alone. i know things will work out its all in God's hands but im not the patient kind cuz i know i have appts i need to go to and meds i need to have, and i hate having my husband stressed over how the bills will be paid, and buying my meds. im just wondering when it will all be worked out..
And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28
Hope all who read this will have a Merry Christmas and Happy new Year , and remember why we have Christmas the birth of Christ.
