It's beeen awhile since i wrote on this since jan 3rd wow. Just thinking of Easter Sunday, thinking i am feeling much better this yr than last yr. I can actually enjoy an Easter dinner this yr, even tho my taste still is off but not as bad as last yr, where i had none.
I have been feeling alot better with some more energy than i had last year, but not much still have pace myself but what i have paced myself has helped alot, where i dont think i need to do everything at once. Been taking care of myself better. i would like to get back into walking but i want a treadmill that a friend wants to give me to start on first, so that if i get tired i can rest and stop, if i walked outside like i used to i always got too tired and dizzy but i still had to keep going. so if i can start on a treadmill and get better then i can start outside like i like it.
i have been baking like crazy breads, sweets, and cooking more fresh meals from scratch and loving it. i went pan crazy last summer buying up different pans i never had and always wanted. i think my family has been liking what i have been making they eat it all up.... have been collecting recipes from my mom in law and my mom and online to try new stuff.
i have to have a scan in june or over the summer and get check to make sure i still have no thyroid cancer. i do have some charity assistance to help pay for my medical bills for a yr i have help through the people who make the meds so i can have them for a yr too. so things are looking up for me just wish that my energy would be back to what it was i turned 36 in march i feel more like 60 sometimes and then i guess if my synthroid really kicks in im hyper lol. i have to find a new family dr cuz the one who took over my old dr after he retired dont like when i said i WONT take an anti- depressant for anxiety attacks. i still get those sometimes, but those happy pills people call them dont help me at all they make crazy and not remember what happened first time i had themfor migraines my husband said i acted like i never acted with before and i scared him. i dont remember anything of the day after i took them cuz they want u to take them at bedtime.
think my emotions are sorta on level now im more happier than i use to be, but i guess i have my times lol but dont most women do. if my husband only knew everything that is on my mind and what i am still going through he knows some but i havent really said much about stuff.
i wish spring would come here where i live im tired of the cold im freezing one moment then next im hot, but mainly cold all the time, i still get red rashes on my arms when my skin is still over hot. once i was in the ER and they saw the rash they asked are you here for that, i said no its a thing that comes since thyroid cancer. they had a funny look on their face lol.
im in better spirits about everything gotta start living again and not let that i had cancer get me down. i have a family to take care of. hope everyone has a great Easter i remember it as when Christ gave His life for us and rose again the 3rd day. it gives me chills when im facebook and see pictures of Christ on the cross, makes me know that He loves me and died for me i dont know anyone who would risk his life for mine, but Jesus "It is finished!" John 19:30 as He hung on the cross said these words meaning He did the will of the Father all the way to death for us wow to have that kind of love
