almost there

i just love this picture i want to be that kind of woman.......

 

well today i had my pills for my scan tomorrow to see if i need another RAI. the last 2 weeks seemed like forever not being able to eat what i want. i did eat more this time than last time since i kno what im eating now. i still feel weak and tired and out of breath and  having twinges in my chest like before but not as bad as before. i cant believe i said i cant wait til i can be back on synthroid again ill be off it 3 weeks this wednesday. I know the Lord is the one who go me through this last 2 weeks of the LID. He gave me the strength to keep going. now if i can get through this week of my scan and stuff. i got really irate today my endo doc didnt call me til i was on the road to tell me i can have the pills for scan i had to see what my bloodwk was if i can have the scan. i called them 2xs and Mark was the first to call them to call me. when i called the lady knew i was mad when i told her they said they would call when my hubby called in a few mins HA ya right, then i called oh we'll call u soon then the 3rd time i told her they were suppose to call 3 hrs ago!!!!! to say the least they shouldnt mess with a thyroid cancer patient who hasnt had real food in 2 weeks and more or synthroid for 3 weeks. i had appt for 130 today to get pills and takes an hr altogether to get there with my mom in law driving 30mins to my house and then another 30 down after my house.
i have been noticing my pulse is low but my BP is ok this time so far. i had problems before about a month after my treatment. if i dont need a treatment my mom  wants to come and take me and ash and her to Olive Garden for my first good meal. i cant wait til i can Mark took me to my last night i could eat good.
 now i have a bad headache and am very  cold, tired and weak ive been sleeping better. but thats because im not on a high dose of synthroid like before, and im hoping for a neg scan so they can try and put me on a normal dose so maybe i can sleep better on it. i feel like there is something in my throat all the time it drives me crazy.
i just need some more strength to get through this week and i know God will He always will. i need to trust Him more .. sometimes i feel like the engine that could, saying i think i can i think i can and sometimes i said no i cant but God tells me yes u can....... Wait on the LORD; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the LORD! Psalms 27:14. i read this verse this morning in my favorite authors books on power of prayer. i know i have been alitte anxious on this week thinking i could still have cancer, but God's Word says....Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Phil. 4:6,7..... i just have to keep reminding myself that all the time. well  probably write more later this week to say whats going on i hate when things are up in the air.......