A New Day

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.    2 Timothy 1:7



When I came across this verse when looking through my bible on my laptop, it hit me that i have been living in fear about this thyroid cancer. I know God didnt give me the spirit of fear because He never left my side through all this. And my mind has not been calm the last 6 or 7  months now. I still dont feel up to par yet but better than i was the last few months. And the thoughts of possibly going through all this again in sept scares me. But i know God will be with me through it all and He has and will give me the strength i need.
Something came over me today as i got this message from someone i have known for years, telling me they have a bunch of nodules in their neck and they will too be checked for thyroid cancer. I told this person I will help anyway I can and if they have any questions I will try to answer them the best I know how. This person said they didnt want to bring back stuff for me when I was going through that, I told them, not to worry about me I want to talk about it, and help anyway i can i want to be an avocate I want to spread awareness about thyroid cancer and to do self checks of peoples necks to see if they have lumps and bumps. Mark on the other hand doesnt want to relive his cancer time. I never was that way not even with epilepsy i had and id talk about that too. I would rather tell my story if it would help one person to check their necks for nodules and have them find their cancer early not later, they always tell women to check their breasts every months why not your neck too, breast cancer is not the only cancer there is there are lots of cancer and its sad to hear people being diagnosed with any cancer.
I am still not sure why God allowed this to happen to me, but i know i will know someday maybe. It may just be for me to see i can be strong and not weak, and to ask for help when i need it i have always had a hard time asking for help and the past 6 months i had to ask for help from Mark, Ashley, and my 2 moms. I am not a superwomen who has to do all the work myself. I always thought it was a weakness to ask for help but its not.
I need to trust God, and know He is there with me through this. And i need to start praying again and pray for those who may have thyroid cancer and those who do. and pray that there will be a cure for all cancers.
I dont feel like im in a dark room anymore, everyone i talk to tells me they are praying for me and that encourages me. I still feel tired still and dizzy and lightheaded but i have to not do to much and rest my body when it needs it. Yes the last few months were very dark for me but I am not afraid to talk about it with people. God doesnt give you no more than He knows you can handle when you are walking with the Lord.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Phil 4:13

Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths. Prov. 3:5-6  

Whenever I am afraid, I will trust in You. In God (I will praise His word), In God I have put my trust; I will not fear. What can flesh do to me? Psalm 56:3-4