I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Phil 4:13
I keep thinking about this verse and wonder why its so hard for me to find strength in God I know He is there and wants to help me, but I dont feel it I feel so weak emotionally,physically, mentally, and spiritually. I'm tired of the way I have been feeling. I have been having some issues with the heat and sun, everytime i go outside for a bit I get sick, weak and dizzy and then if I'm really overheated in my body I get a rash on my right arm and feels like a sunburn when u feel it. When I cool down it goes away. Some people tell me to ask my endo doc about that it may be my Synthroid, even my husband asks me if it says anything on papers I get on the pill if it says stay away from sun and heat... Well it doesn't so I did call me endo dr tues, and all they said was to stay out of the sun and heat and take it easy, cuz I told them too I get tired and weak still and still feel out od sorts. So does that mean I can't go anywhere unless it has a AC??? Cuz I feel better when I am in AC so if thats so that means no inlaws, no church, etc....
They said too its how my body is reacting now ok to WHAT!? they didn't say. they said take it easy if I take it anymore easy i wouldn't be doing anything at all. I have been taking it easy I thought. I see endo doc in aug for my checkup so I am gonna have a nice talk with her about all this. I still don't eat good or taste much everything taste bland to me. I still have a hard time grocery shopping I get tired to easy still and tues when I went I must have twisted my back, it was hurting before cuz I have been overdoing myself with housework in kicthen but tues I really did it bad I cant even get off the couch without feeling like I'm gonna be on my knees soon. It's like sianca but on my left side and been having spasms. Just what I need more of me to hurt and can't do much. If my back don't straighten up I'll have to see my fam doc about it I already take a pain pill for my neck which I thought would help the back but doesn't I need a muscle relaxer for it since all I have with it is spasms. I feel discouraged but don't know who to talk to or how to talk about how I feel. I don't think my husband would listen to me or understand even tho he had cancer too yrs ago and hes the one person I thought would understand. Our daughter is the only one here who yells at me if I am doing too much which shows she cares about her mommy, and shes only 13 she shouldn't be worried about her mom. And she will offer to help me out or tell me to lay down and she will do what i was doing usually housework. I still feel weak when I walk thought maybe i could gain strength doing that but I cant take the heat. This is so depressing. I wish the heat would go down its been in the 90s here for a few weeks mid 90s now 80s would be fine. I wish I didn't feel so alone in this.................
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