I made a decision I hope I can keep. im tired of allowing thyca to control of my life. I want to lose weight and have energy again. a couple weeks ago I took a walk at a park while Ashley was at piano lesson took it slow and easy, not sure the distance, but felt good even tho I was weak and tired when I got home and was shaking. last night I decided to try again closer to home. I walked my path I use to love, and Ashley walked with me it felt great. I walked 2 miles last night think it was too much so gonna try slowing it down a bit, and this morning I had to go to the PO to mail a card out and get some groceries so I decided to walk up rather than drive the car it was 1/2 mile total it was better on me than yesterdays walk.
Got to get back into being close to the Lord again. the last few years I have felt far away from Him and I know its not Him but me that has moved... I want to start taking care of "me" again mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and physically.
I still have a lot of pain in my neck, back, hip but walking has been helping the pain somewhat. at physical therapy of my back the lady said that walking will give ur back the oxygen it needs to help the back I hope it does.
I claim my life back from thyca and get past it. I had it, I fought it, I won. now its time to get my life and body back to where it was before and lose more weight than I was then. just hoping I have the strength to do it all. I know itll take time to do it and have to tell myself to go for it, its so easy to give up. I have felt for a couple years that I gave up on myself and let myself go but I cant do that any longer I have a husband and daughter I need to stay healthy for.
kinda had awakening in the last week. found out someone I use to know is dying from cancer its to far long for them to help. and made me think quite abit about my life and that God has spared not just my life but also my husband's life too he had cancer in 2001. life it to short and we need to live like there is no tomorrow, we are not promised tomorrow.
I want to be the woman, wife, mother I have to be and want to be and I know that I have to first get back into my spiritual life and become closer to the Lord again. I know He will help me.
the only verse that comes to mind typing this is....... phil 4:13 I can do ALL things throught Christ who strengthens me... and I need a lot of strength right now I don't feel too strong to do what my heart and mind wants to do only through God I know I can...............
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