So teach us to number our days, That we may gain a heart of wisdom. Psalms 90:12
Can this be over with already, God knows im not a patient person and this diet is not the kind of diet anyone want to be on. I cant remember ever feeling so hungry before. this is only day 5 of the 2 weeks of the low iodine diet, plus i still have to be on it til i get my treatment which still could be 2 weeks from now. i cant sleep cuz all my tummy does is grumble saying FEED ME. how does anyone do this. i just reminding myself i have to do this to get the best of the treatement, and i have a daughter and hubby to fight for and of course other family and friends too. i hope i only have to do this RAI once so i dont have to go through this again. just seem like this month is going to be a very long month and these next couple weeks will be long. my shoulder still hurts and feels weak for some reason i have no idea.
yesterday i tried to make homemade spaghetti sauce so that i can eat it it was the most horrible food i ate so far. Mark tried the guy who likes anything and said gross lol. and said how can you eat that i said i have no choice i almost threw up. tonight im making chicken with baked sweet potato i love chicken so i wont have any problem eating that tonight. The weather outside is how i feel inside its raining out and dark feels like its about 6 here and after the sunset.
Tomorrow Ashley goes to my moms for a few days til after i see my nuclear dr on tues. thats what so nice about homeschooling is i can let her go to grams whenever i want and still finish the year on time being that we started really early and end by the end of april. And i think i need some time alone when Mark is at work. Sunday is daylight saving time which i have a love/hate with this one i love the light longer at night but not missing an hr of sleep and its on my birthday.
every day i wake up thinking about the engine that could.... i think i can i think i can..... but i really want to say no i cant!
i know only the Lord can give me the strength to get through this and all who love me. Mark has been great always asking me how im feeling and how im doing like hes concerned about me getting to tired and weak on this which i feel i am he doesnt want me driving so hes going to be taking me to all my appts for the drs, so i try to get them the lastest in the afternoon so he dont have to miss a whole days work, and he gives me strength to keep going on this has much as i want to quit and forget about it he always make sures im not eating what im not suppose to keeping an eye on me. Mark still hasnt talked much about what is in his mind and heart but he is letting me vent and talk more about it which before i felt i couldnt. well better try and get some housework done before my hubby comes home from work and get off of here
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